Paramnesia

Paramnesia
Collage of pictures, Black & White, Dimensions: Α3
"The photo depictis me and my mother"​

Paramnesia or a false memory is a psychological phenomenon where a person recalls something that did not happen or happened differently
from the way it actually happened. False memory is an important part of psychological research because of its links to many mental disorders,
such as post-traumatic stress disorder.
A history of trauma is relevant to the issue of false memory. It has been proposed that people with a trauma history or trauma symptoms may be
particularly vulnerable to memory deficits, including source-monitoring failures.
As I was recollecting my childhood, I realized that there was no picture of my mother and I (due to the fact that my parents divorced a little after my birth).
The absence of my mother defined and contributed to the development of my character.
The oral stage (1st year): it is the source of great pleasure, nursing. This is the stage of the greatest dependence, the child is passive and receptive. Psychologists say that fixation at this stage makes a person develop narcissistic characteristics. The other people are identified only by what they can provide. There are excessive demands which are expressed sometimes with modesty and other times imploringly or aggressively.
Through this work, I attempt to represent a missing piece of infancy, and maybe the most important: Nursing.
An image which includes hundreds of others, but never existed, emerges the conscious and defines the existence.
An attempt to restore a relationship between mother and child through photo imaging of an action which never actually occurred. And eventually, an attempt to compose a self, who seeks to break the narcissistic shackles, to love and to be loved, to be freed from an ego which rules and leads the person to loneliness.
The photo imaging validates a fact which has been constructed in my fantasy in order to be able to exist.